Stuck in the Middle

So I am stuck in the middle lately.  What do I want to do with the rest of my life?  Do I need a career change?  Do I want more kids?  The questions can go on and on...  I am going through that rough area again.  I LOVE my jobs most of the time.  I can't have one without the other. I wouldn't be able to do daycare all week, if I didn't have the adult life at J Alexander's on the weekend.  I couldn't do J Alexander's all week either.  SO I just sit here and think, and think, and think.. and apply, and apply, and apply.  As of next week I am officially a substitute teacher for Broward County Public Schools. Should I close the day care and just do that full time until I am able to secure a full time job at one of the schools I substitute for?  I really don't want to leave my full time job to substitute, so I have applied at  a few colleges for their masters programs..but they all want me to apply for a teaching certificate first, and I did that ages ago, and I am still waiting for that letter in order to register for classes... So is anyone truly happy with their job?  I feel like stress is in every job, but if I get a job outside of the home, at least I have a home to come to whenever I want to relax.  Plus, Eric's job is nuts.  He works crazy hours, and he wants to come home and sleep whenever he wants, be on the phone whenever he wants, jump in the pool whenever he wants...etc.. Being a licensed home day care, you can't do any of that.  We can't have family members visit.. We can't leave doors unlocked.  Our dogs have to be crated all day..  Our nice things feel the wrath of toddlers and get ruined.  My screened in patio has been broken three times in four months....and oh boy could I write a list.
BUT, then there are the kids.  Some of these kids have a permanent place in my heart, even when they misbehave... my job is amazing.. if only it wasn't so many hours and in my home.  I wish I had the funding to have a center.  Even if I made the same amount of money as I did now, it would be such a better situation.  Still all the perks, but none of the cons...  Ahh.. time to play the lotto.. Look at this child's face.  This is why I am stuck in the middle!!

NEXT! Psoriasis stinks!!

Well , Psoriasis. Psoriasis stinks!  Erianna got strep throat about two years ago from her day care which was not following rules in regards to nap time space requirements, and everyone got strep throat from each other.. then I got it.. then weeks later I had a rash on my arms.. then months later it was worse, then finally I go to the dermatologist, and it is Guttate Psoriasis.. which is caused by strep throat, which has a 20% chance of going away. so i cry, and cry and cry, it was all over my body.. i looked like i had something realllllly wrong with me.. Well here we are.. still with guttate psoriasis.. just a few embarrassing places on my body, and alllll over my head. I have tried everything.. shots in my head, this shampoo, that shampoo, that steroid, that vitamin, that random plant, banana peels on my head, vinegar, olive oil, peanut oil.. you name it.. and nothing.. just a really itchy scalp and a bathroom full of shampoo and conditioners. oh and a husband who complains non stop if i have a treatment in my hair... sorry buddy.... I don't care if it smells to you.. my happiness is worth more than the cost of your complaining.. he just told me to find another place to sleep... really?? most husbands would read their wives blogs but it's obvious he knows the least bit about my life.... and the treatment of the night actually smells kinda nice :) It's a baby oil/peanut oil combo smell. I have used much worse. At least this one doesn't have a huge CANCER warning label on it, and it won't stain my side of the bed!! AHHH anyone have any words of wisdom for me on Psoriasis or husbands? I am sick of both of them!!!!!!!